Sorry my dear =)

Can anyone tell me what happened to me? I don't even know what had happened to me these few days. I hate myself being like that. I knew that she ain't gonna go out with me that day and I knew that she's gonna go out with those peoples who I dislike, but the major problem is that she don't even know that I dislike them so much. I knew that I'd been changing a lot since I was in secondary. The first year in secondary, I was like a primary students keep following the school rules, but once I met some people that break my heart ( the discipline teach who ignore my request to be a prefect ), I start to break the rules without thinking anything  furthermore. Trail exam had just past. The last subject was Mathematics, the easiest subject for me. She told me that she needs my help on giving her some revision before the examination starts. But unfortunately, one of the members of the group that I dislike came to find her to talk about the trip which they are going out on Friday, the first day of our holidays. Actually, she should be going out with me, but that group of peoples are so cheeky. They come without the teacher's permission and they just cut in halfway when I'm teaching her Math. What a rude girl. SHAME ON YOU BITCH. When she was at the side of her, hugging her, I was like WATTA HELL IS SHE DOING? ARE YOU BLIND? CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I'M TEACHING HER MATH? I KNEW THAT YOUR MARKS IS QUITE GOOD BUT YOUR MATH IS NOT AS GOOD AS MINE. SHE WANTS TO LEARN, BUT YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO WANTS TO LEARN. AREN'T YOU? GET AWAY FROM HER, OR ELSE I WILL JUST SCOLD YOU LIKE NO ONE EVER BE SCOLDING YOU. DON'T EVER HUG HER LIKE THAT. I HATE THAT. I felt sorry to the girl whom I'm teaching her Math. I just walk away with anger and sadness, going back to my own place and keep on solving whatever Math problems that I have that time. She keep on calling my name, my friend sitting behind me keep on kicking my chair to inform me that she is calling me and friends around me were looking me like I'd did anything wrong in the class. As what I said, as I walked away, she did not stops me from walking away, I will not turn back to do anything for her. Finally, exam's over. I was like -- shit, exam's over, is she going out with me or with them? Whatever, who cares? Here comes the day, Friday. We're all going to the same mall, but unfortunately, I went with my cousins but not her and obviously, she went out with them. Friendly speaking, I did not think about contacting her in the mall, but she contacted me there, I was so surprised there. So? She's only contacting me but not gonna walk around the mall with me. So I was having this emotion when she contacted me --> -.-.. Once I met her near the cinema, my expressions were like --> -.-!! HOW COME I WILL MEET THEM HERE?!?!?! Then, the following expression was --> :] a normal smile whenever I see her. Went up to say 'Hi', but with a different feeling. Duhh. I bought her a Marimo Plant which is a ball of algae, it looks cute, fluffy, round, tiny and most importantly is that it is stands for LOVE c: hope she like it c:

4th, 5th, 6th day of CNY

Finally I'm back to my blogger..


back to the forth day of CNY, still remember when I reach my grandmum's house, I got shocked by my uncles and aunties.. I asked my dad : daddy, who are they? and my dad told me that they are all my uncle and auntie, OMG.. all of them were so young, are they really my uncle and auntie?! the youngest one was only 21,and he's the one that wearing black T-shirt.. Ok, ok.. whatever.. preparing lunch.. I asked agn, daddy, who is the one that added me in Facebook? and my dad pointed to me on the uncle that wearing blue colour T that day.. Okay.. then what about the other one, is he also my uncle? yup.. bt he is just 21... alright alright.. they are all my uncle.. then we were needed to buy some chili sauce, ice and bla bla bla.. since the grocery shop was closed, my cousin--Brandon, Audrey and me prefer to walk to the "petronas" to buy everything they need.. okay, while walking, my cousin asked: lets think about we shld we brg them to have a walk, Queensbay Mall, Gurney Plaza or where.. final answer--Queensbay Mall..nothin to say abt lunch..lets jump to the Queensbay Mall~ =) while we reached there, Khaixian (one of my uncle) suggested to find my brother first. Great idea.. PDI.. we walked in, my cousin and Khaixian went to find my brother, and Khaisheng (my elder uncle) said "mei mei(younger sis) should go first, so that my brother will gt shocked..but, nothing to say there.. Fly to B.R. actually, I shld sit bside Ah Jie, bt after I went to take 5cups of mineral water, Brandon "stole" my place.. =(  so I had to sit beside Khaixian.. lol..the second time, sitting bside him.. what a large cup of ice cream..I'm so full that time.. then he went to buy his iphone screen protector v Brandon and at last the rest of us went to find them.. =) then Ah Jie and I went to find something to buy for our friends.. =) and she phoned them because we are going to Jusco to buy things we need for BBQ at night.. marshmallows, brush, honey, and many more.. and Brandon and Khaixian are the one that went upstairs to buy the brush, bt surprisingly, they bought playing cards.. and the jokers are still woth me now.. hiak hiak hiak hiak.. x)
Day is gone, BBQ comes by..Ahahaha.. skip over the BBQ parts.. to the poker part.. dont mind right? we played Blackjack, "chua dai di".. all with money.. bt, luckily I kept some of the money that I won the day before that.. =) and where I sat that day was between both of my uncle.. that means I sit at the right hand side of Khaisheng and left hand side of Khaixian.. great time..cz idk when I lose and when I win.. lol,, paiseh har.. x]  
after that, time to knew about the stories about our fathers when they're small.. =) lets not say what they said, lets talk about what kind of emotions they have.. Khaisheng seems nothing -.- bt Khaixian looks interested with it ^^ hahax..  and it was about 01.30, we went home.. bt I really dono y he wants to torture himself by installing apps in Brandon's iphone.. and he slept at 5a.m. so late.. 


The fifth day of new year..
they reach nai nai house at about 12p.m. still remember that he's wearing white T and yellow shorts.. -.- I took his photo.. lol.. -.- preparing lunch---nothin to say.. ^^ having lunch, again.. I sit beside him, and all is because there is no more place for me, and he called me to sit beside him.. "am song" x) okay.. while watching TV, his sister sit beside me and his elder brother--Khaisheng sit beside his sister and what we did was joking around.. mobile phone games, yellow minded, yellow colour, "ham ju sao ("guang dong hua"), "xian zhu jiao"Chinese" and bla bla bla.. all "piang" out.. lol.. x) okay, at night.. to Taiping.. in the bus, I sit beside his sister and the one that was sitting in front of me was his elder brother and he sit beside his brother.. still remember that when I was still wearing socks, they passes 100plus, mineral water, chocolates to me, and all I answered them was "I am still wearing my socks and shoes..." -.- then, sleeping time-- four of us looks asleep and i had some snap of his sleeping pic from behind..xD zoom!! and we reached Taiping..in the cafeteria, actually I shld be sitting in between of Khaixian and his sister that means that I shld be sitting at the left hand side of him..=) bt at last, I sit at the right hand side of him cz Joyce came to sit with me.. =( 
at that time, laughing scene.. lol.. the singer.. ...speechless... lol.. damn funny..skip to the end of the wedding dinner.. red packets time!! we queue up according to our ages..skip agn to the moment when we were in bus.. =) poker time for almost all teenage guys in the bus.. he sat beside me.. lol.. yeah, they were really annoying.. I want to go toilet.. as they stopped playing, one of my uncle--Khaisheng brought me to the toilet.. I know I am not a kid, bt as he's my uncle, whatever.. follow him.. =) back to the bus, dad told us the gay story abt his friend.. then, once again.. sleeping time.. =) I slept at my actual place, and after that I looked to the back and I found that everyone were asleep so I changed my place to the place beside me, bt who knows that Khaisheng were nt asleep, when I put down my chair, he pulled for me, and what I can say was just thank you and smile to him, a great smile from him.. a lovely smile.. =) nites to all of them.. :]


the 6th day of CNY..
they're going back at 9.30p.m. =( 
I felt down when I cant see him when I was at my grandma house in the morning, he was at Joyce's house.. damn.. sad announcement... =( 
bt luckily, they went there at night to have their dinner before they went back to JB.. 
at night, I was totally down.. I knew that I will meet them this year end, but I was totally down for the whole day.. bt who cares.. at least I snap another photo of him before he leave Penang.. =) bye.. miss ya~ =)


Yeo Khai Xian, Yeo Khai Sheng--both of my uncle 
Yeo Hui Tee--my aunt


=) see ya next time.. =)

3rd day of CNY

Well.. third day of CNY..almost a same like last few days.. grey T-shirt, grey shorts, and white shoes..
Today, the whole day in Kedah.. my aunt's house.. 

-Poker

-Cash

-Laughter 

LAWL..

Okay..into the topic..

since it was long long ago I went back to Kedah, for today, I made something great there..

I forgot to bring extra money there!! gosh.. how am I going to play Blackjack.. =(

bt, my cousin gave me RM3 to play.. ermm.. how am I going to play with only RM3.. ?.?

BUT, I really dont know am I the lucky one today.. 

DOUBLE, TRIPLE, "ngam ngam" 8/9 and bla bla bla..

double means that if you have both cards with the same flower on it and the total of the numbers is not less than 4 and not more than 8/9 you will get double of the money that you put in to play, and triple is also the same as double.. =)

total.. two elder cousins, one auntie, my brother, three younger cousin and me playing.. =)

LUCKY me~~ one of my elder cousin "tumpang" his money that he put in on me.. at that time, TRIPLE!! gosh.. he put in RM50..large number huh.. and triple.. RM150.. larger number.. why dont I put in all the money that I have that time.. =(

but, although I just played with RM6, and I won back RM27.. nice try.. first time playing Blackjack, but won back some money from my cousins.. =)

Okay.. if gonna play Blackjack again, dont forget me.. I want to play too~~ x)

the second day of CNY..

Great.. the second day.. same as usual.. grey colour shirt, brown colour pants, and white shoes.. 

For today, both of my aunt told me about what I should do in my future..

I know that what I want to be id really tough for me to make it a success, but I would really hope to have a try.. Auntie, mommy, daddy, grandmum, I know that you guys are thinking about my future, but I really wish to have it.. 

You guys told me that Ernest is confuse about what he likes and what he hopes to be in his future, but dont you guys gave him yours' opinion? I knew that you guys are caring about us, but cant you let us try...

He hopes to be a doctor, same as me.. I also hope to be a doctor too.. I hope to rescue people whom were weak, needs help form us.. And that's my thinking..and auntie, you said that the first reason he will wants to be a doctor is to rescue or save peoples life..but in other way, you said that he hopes to earn more money to reaches his hope.. I really don't get it.. why will you guys will have this kind of thinking..

Well, let's talk about other things..

I knew tat this world have two kinds of "LOVE"..

one is the love between family members, 

and another one is between a boy and a girl that means boyfriend and girlfriend..

I knew that what I wanted to say is I should love him as my family members, but I reallly need his help in my studies..
Since he was studying in Kedah, I couldn't phone him or even chat with him in facebook or even MSN.. GOSH...

Nah.. By the way, all da best in Kedah.. I know that you are going back to Kedah during the 6th day of CNY, and you're havin your exam at the 8th day of CNY.. good luck man~ 

love ya, miss ya and see ya.. =) 

keep in touch.. =)

for the first time,
I felt that I am the one that make you sad, emo, down..
I'm sorry..

for the first time,
I felt sorry on someone..
I'm really sorry..

for the first time,
I like someone so much..
and I felt sorry on that..

for the first time,
I learn to put someone down..
and I felt so painful for putting someone down..
and finally I felt sorry on both of us..

for the first time,
I felt lonely without someone to SMS with..
sorry that I had to say that..
maybe you knew that I liked you for a long time..
but aren't you care about..
that hurt me so much..
don't you know that..
just think about it,
what if your girlfriend leave you someday?
wont you feel lonely?
wont you feel sad?
wont you feel EMO?
wont you feel that you had been arrested by love?
sorry if u saw this..

as a conclusion, what I wanna say is ----
I am not the only one that people will scold me DUDE!
besides me, you will be the one that I will scold or say you DUDE!!

DUDE!! DUDE!!! DUDE!!!!
DAMN U IDIOT!!!

L.Z.Y.

While answering those questions that she gave me, the first one guy that I answer is you.. Do you know what's the reason? Easy.. Because you are too IMPORTANT to me..I just realize that after AGM, you will not be going to the school activity already.. I just hope that I am just 2 years smaller than you..If I am just 2 years smaller than you, I will graduate in the same year with you..I really hope that it may happen.. But I know, it will not happen..thats the reason why I will always EMO at class..

I will emo,

I will cry, 

I will sad..

Its all just because of you.. 

Am I going to miss you after you graduate?

Am I going to think about you after you graduate?

Am I going to think about all the memories I had with you?

Am I going to miss you whenever or wherever I am?

By the way, good luck in STPM and hope you will be happy forever..

lzy..

I will never forget how much I love you..
I love you since last year..
I love your smile..
I love your chubby face..
I love your gina face..
I love your sound..
I love the way you talk..
I love the way you walk..
I love your bag putting up high..
I love your eyes when you are looking me..

I just cant accept that you are going to leave me this year..
I just cant accept that you have a girlfriend that always be with you..
I just cant accept that you always dint reply my message..
There are lots of things that I cant accept..

You hurt me in real life..
You hurt me in Facebook..
But I still love you..

Just remember to be happy..
Just remember not to be emo..
And always remember that I will always support you, be with you whenever you need me