Sorry my dear =)

Can anyone tell me what happened to me? I don't even know what had happened to me these few days. I hate myself being like that. I knew that she ain't gonna go out with me that day and I knew that she's gonna go out with those peoples who I dislike, but the major problem is that she don't even know that I dislike them so much. I knew that I'd been changing a lot since I was in secondary. The first year in secondary, I was like a primary students keep following the school rules, but once I met some people that break my heart ( the discipline teach who ignore my request to be a prefect ), I start to break the rules without thinking anything  furthermore. Trail exam had just past. The last subject was Mathematics, the easiest subject for me. She told me that she needs my help on giving her some revision before the examination starts. But unfortunately, one of the members of the group that I dislike came to find her to talk about the trip which they are going out on Friday, the first day of our holidays. Actually, she should be going out with me, but that group of peoples are so cheeky. They come without the teacher's permission and they just cut in halfway when I'm teaching her Math. What a rude girl. SHAME ON YOU BITCH. When she was at the side of her, hugging her, I was like WATTA HELL IS SHE DOING? ARE YOU BLIND? CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I'M TEACHING HER MATH? I KNEW THAT YOUR MARKS IS QUITE GOOD BUT YOUR MATH IS NOT AS GOOD AS MINE. SHE WANTS TO LEARN, BUT YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO WANTS TO LEARN. AREN'T YOU? GET AWAY FROM HER, OR ELSE I WILL JUST SCOLD YOU LIKE NO ONE EVER BE SCOLDING YOU. DON'T EVER HUG HER LIKE THAT. I HATE THAT. I felt sorry to the girl whom I'm teaching her Math. I just walk away with anger and sadness, going back to my own place and keep on solving whatever Math problems that I have that time. She keep on calling my name, my friend sitting behind me keep on kicking my chair to inform me that she is calling me and friends around me were looking me like I'd did anything wrong in the class. As what I said, as I walked away, she did not stops me from walking away, I will not turn back to do anything for her. Finally, exam's over. I was like -- shit, exam's over, is she going out with me or with them? Whatever, who cares? Here comes the day, Friday. We're all going to the same mall, but unfortunately, I went with my cousins but not her and obviously, she went out with them. Friendly speaking, I did not think about contacting her in the mall, but she contacted me there, I was so surprised there. So? She's only contacting me but not gonna walk around the mall with me. So I was having this emotion when she contacted me --> -.-.. Once I met her near the cinema, my expressions were like --> -.-!! HOW COME I WILL MEET THEM HERE?!?!?! Then, the following expression was --> :] a normal smile whenever I see her. Went up to say 'Hi', but with a different feeling. Duhh. I bought her a Marimo Plant which is a ball of algae, it looks cute, fluffy, round, tiny and most importantly is that it is stands for LOVE c: hope she like it c: